Have you ever felt so overwhelmed that you ask yourself or the universe or even god why is this all happening to me? Why am I the only one who feels this way? When can all of this just stop? You second guess yourself, your choices, your life, and sometimes you might be praying for some help, Unless you aren’t religious like me, then you just wish someone can help. The thing is at this very moment you feel so isolated so overwhelmed and exhausted that you feel like no one will understand, no one else feels this way I mean after all look at your friends and family all smiling and laughing and living there lives, or you might not have any friends like i did at one point of my life and just watch how everyone around you doesn’t acknowledge you and how happy they are and how they cant feel this way, that no one will care if you are gone, but the fact remains that is all a lie. You are not the only shadow in this world. There are many like that, I was once living in the shadows. It wouldn’t have made a difference if i disappeared for good or ran away. My parents forgot i existed, I had no friends, somehow i pulled the motivation to continue, i escaped the shadows and even today they try to pull me back but I fight back because i have a reason to live without my depression. I’ll admit its not entirely gone, it comes and goes but I am strong enough on my own to fight back. The thing is I’m not alone anymore, I have friends that i can call my family, I have FAMILY that motivates me to keep going, and you the reader, the person looking for help, or the person too scared to find help you are my motivation to keep going because there is no one stronger than a person that can get through their depression, there is no one stronger than the kids who go from living in shadows and playing in the sun. You aren’t alone, there are many like you and I and unfortunately there will always be. But we can change that by having hope because one thing is for certain no matter how alone you feel, you’re never alone.
We feel privileged to meet with a wonderful group of young people from NIU on Tuesday that wanted to bring awareness to suicide by sharing their stories and remembering their brother Antonio, along with Seth, and other friends and loved ones lost. Thank you for having us!
Delta Phi Delta and Phi Beta Sigma of NIU will be holding a informational gathering, march, and bonfire Tuesday, September 29th, at NIU campus. Project Seth and other survivors will be at the Student Center in room 306 beginning at 6:30 PM to share their stories of loss relating to their loved ones and friend. We’re hopeful the discussion will help others seek help and be aware of the signs of suicide and depression. A march and bonfire are scheduled to begin at 7:30 PM. Please show your support to suicide prevention and awareness and the students of NIU.
Depression, as shared by writer and Agent For Change Chris Nesemeier:
Have you ever felt so alone you find yourself entering a state of mind where you do not know what to do with yourself anymore? Depression often can have this effect. The feelings of depression can be so overwhelming one begins to question whether this life is truly worth living. Naturally, those who look from the outside cannot truly see what demons are being fought on the inside, yet they feel as though they know what it is like. Everyone fights these battles mentally; however, for some, the battle wages on every day. Slowly but surely the will to fight dwindles away, leaving a person feeling broken and alone. Depression in itself is a very misunderstood illness that affects people all around the world and how it is treated is controversial at best.
Depression in its earliest stages tends to present itself in a manner of denial and anger. Therapy and anti-depressants are not always a remedy for depression; in fact, using anti-depressants often will worsen a person’s mental state giving them conscious thoughts of suicide. Every person, as an individual, physically and mentally copes with their feelings differently. Ultimately, people may resolve issues in a similar manner as others, but overall it is unique to the person. Therapy serves as a stepping-stone for those who attend. Being happy falls to the eye of the beholder. While others may help as guides to the path of happiness, the choice to walk down it is for person to make on his/her own.
In a like manner, many people feel that depression is a state feeling; depression is actually an illness, more so than an emotion. The initial stage of depression is being sad for a brief amount of time; however, if the person is beyond this stage depression can then cause a depressed mood, poor concentration, insomnia, fatigue, appetite disturbances, excessive guilt/thoughts of suicide, and self-harm. Once a person goes through these symptoms, depression has developed past a state feeling and into a mental illness. Perhaps the best treatment for depression is convincing the person that there is still hope. It might sound cliche, but it is true. Once a person has lost hope, they lose the will to fight, leaving depression to consume him/her.
There are no limitations to those who are affected by depression. Statistically, about five to eight percent of adults are affected by depression a year, which is roughly 25 million people. Regardless, not only adults are within its grasp. Depression also affects men, women, veterans, cultural groups, GLBT, children and adolescents, and senior citizens. Therefore, depression is an unbiased illness. Depression can also be a seasonal illness. Seasonal Affective Disorder is a disorder where people who are generally happy throughout the year can experience depression during the winter or summer.
Depression is not only a very powerful illness, but it is an illness that commonly affects people all over the world. With that in mind, when encountering a person who seems upset, strike a conversation or shoot them a smile because it just might save their life. While therapy and anti-depressants might aid some with depression, it is not necessarily the only cure for it. I know firsthand depression can feel like drowning in the depths of despair, because I suffer from depression as well. Depression does not need to be fought alone. Sometimes just another person is needed to help hold up the soul, when the mind can feel it slipping away.
We need your voice to help spread the word about suicide.
Project Seth is looking for Agents For Change. Blogging is a way to express yourself, share your thoughts and experiences, and be a part of a community. We want writers and artists; and all of us in between, to fight the stigma of suicide and depression and Embrace Hope. We encourage you to share your experiences. Comment with what you’re feeling, what helps you, what helps your friends, what doesn’t work, and where you find strength. We encourage you to include drawings, photos, jokes, poems…anything to share what you may be going through and stimulate the conversation. We shouldn’t be quiet. Suicide is a devastating and senseless end.
There’s a battle and we’re going to win, but we need to help each other gather the tools needed to embrace life.
Fight the Stigma. Embrace hope.